Astair

The most wonderful thing happened today

it rained, but not only did it rain, it poured, it stormed, and it was magificent. Oh! How I do love when Indiana has lovely thunderstorms, especially now. We haven't gotten much rain recently and the change in weather was a blessing.

School will be starting soon, not only for myself, but for all my friends as well. I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye to the ones that are leaving and when thinking about it, I'm not looking forward to saying farwell to the ones who are going to school here right in town. I thought I would be able to handle the seperation, but now I'm beginning to understand how difficult it really is going to be. I wish I was a stronger person and I wish that I had more confidence in myself to have the ability to let go and grow in life, but I'm not. I'm still that immature senior in high school who is just having the time of her life. I'm still in that safe secure building where I know everyone and everything. This world seems so big, and though I have big ambition, I'm constantly thinking is it going to be enough? I'm not so sure anymore.

iPods and SYTYCD

Summer is slowly coming to an end and all I can think is

"Please, somehow let the days be longer

the nights be wilder

and every moment be remembered"

However, every day has to end, every night because a morning, and some moments remain forgotten. Since I have not posted much recently, it has given me the time to think about life. About what I want to do and become and how my opinions and views have changed over certain issues.

How I though relationships could last through anything, yet sometimes you just have to be the filler friend, but if you get over yourself and step down off your high horse...

these friendships are always there. You never know how much you care for someone unless you've been seperated for some time. This is my best girl friend [besides Alice of course]-Tressie Linn.

I've known Tress ever since pre-school, which is now a grand total of almost 14 years. We were never really fond of each other all through elementary school, we really didn't hit it off well during middle school, but something about high school changed us. We actually became friends, actually good friends. She is always there for me when I need her and she has the best personality of anyone I know.

But speaking of friends, I have to let you know on a little secret, I have two best friends.

I met Scott Esmond formally the summer of oh seven at Ryan Hawns graduation party. However I knew of Scott through show choir. He was in minstrel magic and he was the only kid I yelled at to make sure that a girl on crew had enough tape on his shirt that it wouldn't come untucked during the show. He drove me absolutely crazy. But at Ryan's I thought he was a pretty cool kid, and being left alone with him for about an hour or so, I knew that we were going to be best friends. I even told him that, which then started the running joke of us being best bestest friends. However in the long run, the joke was on me, because he did become my best friend. Someone whom I talked to all the time...and now I'm dating him. He is the one person that I can tell my secrets to, my hopes and fears. He is there when I have to vent or just need a sholder to cry on. I love him and everything he does for me.

I guess in the long run, I really appreciate these people, and not just them, but all the friends I have in my life. I've grown up a little and realized that the world isn't about me, but all of us. And that being humble is an important trait to have.