dear life

why have you been so mixed up lately?

Fall is in full swing and I have loved every bit of it. I took a little adventure down to Purdue University last weekend and boy, is that campus gorgeous, especially in the fall.

Goals for fall:
take a lot of pictures
meet new and interesting people
go to chicago (hopefully with friends)
have more bondfires (to bond with friends)
paint more
draw more
love more

things we forget

i love this blog. I have started writing my own little phrases and coming up with fun little doodles that can go along with them. But "Things We Forget" has the right idea. Sometimes we worry too much and miss out on whats really important in life. my favorite so far that I have seen is "Aim for Awesomeness". That is my goal. I want to be awesome in everything I do and I want others to be awesome as well.

please please please check out www.thingsweforget.blogspot.com because they are amazing!!!

also i have gotten a tumblr www.celiaanne.tumblr.com i love it! (thanks katie)

RIP Greg Aspacher

Yesterday I found out that one of my best friend's father passed away. Greg Aspacher was one of the sweetest dads I have ever known. He was always there for our close knit group of friends. He treated every single one of us as own of his own children, he would listen, laugh and support us. I can't remember a moment where he wasn't at one of our parties snapping photos, or asking us what was new in our lives, or just coming up from behind with a surprise us with a hug.



Growing up, he was my second dad. Which made sense, I was always hanging out with Ashley and our group and we were always getting into trouble (good trouble of course). He meant so much to me and knowing he is gone brings saddness to my heart. However I know he is in a much better place and he is still looking down on his family, and his "extended" family with pride knowing that we are doing our best. So heres to you Greg, I love you, thank you for making my childhood/teen years special, and you will always hold a special place in my heart.

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I don't know if its hormones or what, but I have been feeling very so so lately.

I'm not finding inspiration around me
I don't feel like I'm doing anything of worth
I feel like I'm wasting the day
I'm just a human shell shrinking till there is nothing left but memories.

I think I just need to cry and left all those gross feelings are out of my system
till I can finally remember the good days and the times I enjoyed laughing and being with people.

I think the past couple days have been very disappointing for me.
Things have really changed and I can't do anything to stop it or to turn the clock backwards to were it made sense.

I have trouble sleeping
I just need to talk

summer time and the living is easy

so its been awhile.
things have been crazy
and life is never stopping

things i'm looking forward to

This Wednesday Sonic is giving away free root beet floats and New Haven Canal Days
This Thursday Scott and I are going to the fort wayne children's zoo to see the new africa before everyone else gets to see it (employee benefits)
This Friday after work, Katie and I are driving down to the Verizon Music Center to experience a Coldplay concert.

Scott's birthday is coming up, but I still have a two weeks before that happens.

Zoo life is fun and long, but I'm usually never bored, which is a first. When I have a job, I'm usually never enjoying it, but working at the zoo is fun and I enjoy what i do. I think working with Holly Wright also plays a role because she is really funny and when no one is around just says what she wants.

Summer is here and the babies (aka highschoolers) only have a half day tomorrow. It really has struck me that I have been out of high school for one whole year. I can't believe it. Life is funny in those ways I guess.

hello...?

I have been having mixed emotions.
I'm sad that I could no move out with my friends.
I'm scared of my future.
I'm upset that my weekends are spent mostly at the zoo.
I'm happy that I'm at the zoo so often.
I'm tired all the time.
I'm stressed about money/work/future.


I just don't know anymore.

goonies never say die

Update: staying at home for another year.

I love the zoo. If you were unaware I am painting faces for small children (and maybe some adults too) for the summer and getting paid for it. I love it. I love being outside I love seeing all the families, and I'm right across from the ponies and right next to the lemurs. They are soooo cute. Maybe I'll bring my camera sometime and snap a few pictures of what goes down. I'm working Friday/Saturday/Sunday, so if your interested in what I do, or if you just LOVE the zoo...stop by, you may be lucky and get a free face painting by moi.

This past weekend was a rough one. First of all, it was opening weekend of the Rabbit Hole (with two more weeks of preformances!!! Check it out!) and opening weekend of the Zoo, and I had to be at both. Which didn't allow for alot of time with Scott. Naturally I became stressed and very annoyed at basically everything, so we had a long talk and a little break just to recharge and get relaxed. Everything is fine now, but I really learned not to under appreciate any time spent with him or to just not love every moment I am with him. I think times like these are wake up calls to remind us how important certain people are in our lives. As much as I hated it, I really learned to love it.

May 16 is the local shutterbug photography show, and Emma Meyer and I are going to be there, so if you aren't doing anything from 1-3 on that day, I'll have more information, but you should stop by and vote for my picture as people's choice award!!!! :] :] :]

I'm feeling a little less stressed. I need to stop thinking that I control everything and just let events take their natural course and just let life go on like its suppose to. I have a problem of just freaking out about things that have already happened. I can't change them so I just need to learn how to accept them and move on.

Happy belated Earth Day Everyone!

sleepless in huntertown

so this week has consisted of: school, little hang out time, and rehearsals for The Rabbit Hole, and looking for an apartment.

My heart loves st. joe, because it is perfect. Its furnished, it is hip, it is cool...but the price is just not in my price range.

so my brain is set on canterbury...it is big, affordable, and we can decorate it ourselves. This however is proving to be problematic with some of my possible roommates.

I'm not sure if the hassel of it all it worth moving out just yet. Maybe if i save my money and stay at home for another year i'll be able to move out, or if i just find different people to room with i'll be set. I don't know. its all crazy right now.

I haven't been feeling like myself lately and i think that the stress of everything and not having a moment to myself is really starting to take its toll. I don't know what is going on in my relationship with scott. I think we're in a rut. hahah which is silly to say. but we're getting through it.

I'm hoping that summer will bring a breath of fresh air into the situation.

Other than that, not too much has been happening.
I can't sleep now, and I think its because I think too much.

mamma i'm a big girl now

I'm so stoked to start working at the Fort Wayne Children's Zoo. I've never really 'professionally' painted anyones face (but my own) but I really don't think it is going to be rocket science, and I'm sure with the practice I will be putting in (because I'm thinking about purchasing a DIY kit from Borders) will sharpen my skills. :]

Right now though, I am helping out as a crew manager for FPT (first presbyterian theatre's) The Rabbit Hole which is a play about a couple dealing with the grief of losing a child. Its really touching and seriously has made me cry every time I see it. It should be a good run. If you are anywhere near the Ft. Wayne area check it out (plus if your a student, call in for free tickets!).

I am ready for summer and for this spring/school season to be over. I'm ready to walk around barefoot, lay in the sun, chill in the pool, and hopefully move out of my parents house. (which is still up in the air, but Katie and some friends and I are looking at St. Joe place for living www.smartstudentliving.com). Its nice but a little pricey so I need to start being smart with my money now, which is something I'm not really good at yet.

so nice, so smart

easter is just in a couple days.
it should be nice

i haven't posted anything in the past...oh goodness, two months, sorry. I really don't know what has kept me. school, trying to find a job, family, friends maybe. my lack of dedication, who knows.

I did find a job though. This summer i will be painting faces at the Fort Wayne Children's Zoo. I'm totally stoked!

Words i wish people would use more often:

*boss (like "wow man, that was totally boss")
*totes! (like "totes! we should definately hang out sometime")
*bitchin' (like "that move you did on your skateboard was totally bitchin'")
(the next couple may actually be phrases)
*barf me out (like "gross! barf me out, she did not kiss him!)
*geek (you never heard this bad boy too often these days)
*heavy (like "wow man, this news is totally heavy")
*legit ( i'm too legit, i'm too legit to quit)

that was just a little random.
i'm done.
peace

lets get crazy

so i haven't posted in a while, which is not part of the plan I wanted to stick to. So I have three pictures I need to post, and I'll kind of do a run down of what happened.

1/28/09 SNOW DAY for high school and college kids alike. I drove in the killer snow to go to my class in the morning because I did not receive a email or any notification of any kind telling me that my class was cancelled and I had something due, so I wasn't going to 'not go'. But once I got there, surprise surprise no class. So I drove fourty five minutes back home (a drive that usually takes me fifteen minutes) Scott and I used the whole day being all lame and played xbox. Mostly guitar hero and rock band (both of which I'm extremly addicted to now).

1/29/09

I went to Carroll to hang out with scott during the show choir break. I knew that I wouldn't be able to go to the run through because I was going to the vet because my dog honey was (and still is) sick and in pain and maybe would have to be put down. So I was really emotional all day, so much to the point that that night, my left eye became extremely puffy and didn't go down till friday mid-afternoon. Well Honey wasn't put down, but she has torn both her ACL's in both of her knees and she has arthritis...so we're thinking about surgery, but she will never be the same dog. Its very sad and I still get really sad when I think about it. My seven year old sister Morgan asked the doctor if "our honey puppy will be okay" and "is she coming home with us". Kids get right to the point, and when I was Morgan crying I lost it. I'm actually getting a little teary eyed thinking about it now. So I'm going to stop now.

Lets skip friday!

1/31/09

This is me today!!! I look pretty flyyyy. I'm sporting red sunglasses from Target, a furry coat from American eagle, a maroon shirt from Banana Republic and jeans from H&M. I'm pretty fashionable today. Scott and I are going Jordan Jeran's surprise birthday party (shhhh!!! Don't tell him!) and boys are suppose to bring a drink and girls a snack. Sodapop and Ponyboy (Scott and I) travelled to the local Wal-Mart to get these supplies. We were thinking about what people would eat and what people liked but then we can up with a brillant idea. I bought Pringles (flavored: Cheeseburger, Bloomin' Onion, and Mozarelli sticks....yum yum) and Scott bought lame store brand pop (aka Dr. Thunder and Mountain Lighting). We are horrible people. I'm kind of hoping no one brings snacks or pop so for the whole party we're stuck with these gross flavor chips and pop. :-)

zomg friends!

Hi, I'm celia anne. This is what I looked like on 12/27/09. I wore kc's oldie yearbook sweater from middle school. I thought that maybe I should flaten my hairs because sometimes their crazy curls drive me batty. My hairs are getting long.

This picture is for yesterday. I just had to do so many homework things so I couldn't post in time. rats. Today in my ethics class we talked about utilitarianism. It was pretty interesting. Putting aside one's own happiness and pleasures for a greater good. Happiness and pleasure for a larger majority of people. It was crazy interesting.

we also had this question which led to many people arguing and I think I actually made one girl cry (on accident, I didn't mean to hurt her feelings). "Is torture justifiable when it deters to would be killers/killers/prisoners?"

what are your thoughts?

No you can't stay here

Well I have decided to do a little something like what miss katieface is doing.

I'm going to go 356 days of taking only one photo of myself-raw, unedited and on my cell phone camera (or if you get extra lucky, i'll have a real fo sho camera)

I think it isn't copying, instead I truly feel that this is a good way to examine oneself and to see how you change apperance wise over the course of a year. :] And besides, it will promt me into blogging daily which another thing I wanna start doing.

Anyone listen to The Whips? They are pretty decent. I wish my computer had a CD burner, I'd be making mixes out the waaaaazzzooooooo. But unfortunately I don't. :[

Hi, I'm Celia Anne, and this is what I looked like today all day. Pretty classy right? I actually put on make up today because it gave the illusion that I was actually awake and ready to go. I wasn't. The crazy curls that are pulled up and away from my face should give a huge clue. 1/26/09

hi, i'm celia anne

[hi this is baby celia anne. I'm not quite sure how old I am in this picture...but obviously I'm not nine. This is the only little celia anne picture i have on my laptop though]

5 Things I was doing 10 years ago:

! Being a third grade huntertown wild cat

! Practically living at FPT

! Playing with Barbies

! Chewing on my hair (which is why my mom cut it super short when I was smaller, because I would chew on my hair)

! Being nine years old

5 Things on my to do list for today: [today is practically over. Its like three in the morning...]

(1)go to sleep (2) wake up (3) shower (4) eat something (5) do some laundry

5 Snacks I love:

(1) lettuce (2) strawberries (3) fruit roll ups (4) ramen noodles (5) snack packs

.5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

(1) pay for college (2) buy an awesome camera with awesome photoshop (3) repay my parents for practically everything (4) buy a puppy (5) give some to my siblings for whatever Jon: baseball something, Morgan: a pony, caleb: a real dinosaur, maya: spongebob

.5 people I tag:

(katie) (amy) (alice) (you) (you)

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Sorry that there are no firefly pictures. My cell camera is lame and I still have not found penelope (she has gone missing, and I'm still really sad about it)

There are twenty four totally true things about me that people really don't know, I'm being totally honest

24] I have to physically write in a journal everything I do each day, everyday. I don't know whether it is normal, but i seriously have to document what I did or I feel sick. I even carry around a little black book thing that I write NOTES for my journal. I also write my feelings and thoughts about certain main points of the day, but mostly its just a play by play.

23] I like written letters way more than emails or facebook messages. I feel that taking the time to sit down and pen a letter is more personal and allows both the sender and receiver to have something more tangible than text on a screen. I don't write letters very often because I don't have many addresses. If you want me to write you a letter just give me your address. I will send you a personalized letter special from celia anne.

22] I really don't like horror movies. I've gotten more use to the gore and the surprise factor, but if I really had the choice, I would probably never watch another horror flick ever. I don't like the anticipation that scary movies make me feel and I really don't like being scared, period. EXCEPT if i'm at like the haunted castle or cave. I love those things, just not scary movies.

21] I have gotten into a Michael Buble faze. I really love his voice and the style of music he sings. I'm a freak. I don't even know why this happened, but it did. oh well.

20] Its really easy for me to get depressed. Not most people know it but I really do have a fairly low self esteem and I always feel like people are judging me. I pull off the confidence level that is high very well. But I only feel like my true self with my closest friends or if I'm preforming.

19] I write poetry. That doesn't make sense. There is not much rhyme and basically zero meter.

18] I love to dance. It doesn't matter what style. I love it all and I wish that I could be in an awesome street crew.

17] I am writing a novel (or kind of short story, I'm not sure yet) about my high school experience, and I'm totally honest and raw in the book. My true feelings for people are realized and my true opinions over situations and events I was involved with are known. I really hope it never gets published.

16] Its hard for me to let people into my shell. I build up walls to protect myself and its difficult for me to let my guard down and share what I'm really feeling. I really hate feeling vunerable and not strong.

15] I really want to go to prom.

14] I really feel most of the time I am not pleasing people. I feel like I fall short of expectations and pretty much a failure in the eyes of people who love me. I don't feel like I will ever over come my short comings.

13] I have high hopes and goals I want to accomplish, I just need that support. I feel like most of the time I'm by myself. Even though truly I know people are always there to support me.

12] I have a problem with making judgments on people too quickly. I really hate being a hater. I want to change that and give people more chances, because I've messed up and I've hurt people too.

11] I want to someday have the courage to apologize to person x. At this point in my life, I'm still blaming person x for the reason I'm not in that relationship anymore. In a way its mostly person x's fault, but I was in the wrong as well.

10] I really don't like the song "Please Don't Stop the Music", I really feel that Rhianna is just whining through the whole thing. I'd rather shave my eyeballs than listen to that song.

9] I was in show choir. I was in show choir for four years. I enjoyed it. And I still enjoy watching groups preform. Nuff said.

8] I sled surf alot in the winter. I'm surprised I haven't broken every bone in my body because of it.

7] I really hate wearing socks, turtle-necks, panty-hose. Though I'm fine with tights, sweaters, and knee-highs.

6] I sing. alot.

5] I see too many movies and read too many books.

4] I really hate all types of breakfast foods. I dislike pancakes, waffles, french-toast, crepes, eggs, bacon, sausage. I feel like I'm going to throw up if I eat gross stuff like this.

3] My favorite movie is "Singin' in the Rain". I hated that movie all through middle school when Mr. Teeple would make us watch it every year.

2] I hate "The Newsies" with a burning passion of hate.

1] I love meeting people, hanging out with my friends, going to pottery painting places, joking around, taking photographs, laughing, being with scott, watching scrubs, painting my room at odd hours of the night and mostly smiling.

firefly thursdays

I woke up today feeling fresh and new. It amazes me how much better one feels when they are on a proper sleeping cycle. For the past two months or so I have just been not sleeping properly. I would stay awake till the early hours of the morning, and I'm not talking about 1:30 or 2:00. No. I'm talking about 4:45 or even 5:59. It got pretty bad. I would feel like crap every moment I was awake but I just couldn't get myself back on track. Well that is until....

Thank you 9 a.m. classes!!!

Seriously I am in love with my morning classes. They allow me to get to bed at a decent hour (now its 12:20-1:00 a.m) and I can wake up at 7:45 feeling so awake (I am a weirdy who functions fine off of 6-7 hours of sleep)

This morning was no different. I woke up, showered, dressed and got everything together for the day. As I was in my car, I realized I forgot a shirt. WHAT? You were outside topless?!?

No.

I was fully dressed. The story is last night I was talking to this kid Scott Esmond, and I told him that I would make a shirt saying "I love Scott Esmond" and that I would wear it to the show choir mock invitational (that is tonight). He didn't believe me.

Scott: There is no way you are going to make a shirt
Celia: You don't believe me?
Scott: I believe that you think that this is going to happen, but Celia, come on, I know you. You won't do it.
Celia: Oh I will too! And you will be all surprised when I pwn you with my awesome shirt making skills
Scott: Okay. If this so-called-shirt ever exists and you do wear it tomorrow, I will give you my Metallica ticket stub. My memory of my first and probably last ever Metallica show. I am so confident that this will not happen.
Celia: Just make sure that you bring the stub, because its going on my door when I win!

.........................................

As you can see, this was a big deal to me. I had to win this challenge. So I ran back into the house, and turned into the kitchen (because my bedroom is where our garage use to be). However while I was turning, my feet wouldn't stop moving forward. My shoes were so wet that they slid and so did I, slamming my leg into the courner of the wall...hard. After a few profanities and laying there looking rather pathetic, I stood up, hobbled to my room and back out. It wasn't until I noticed that my right leg, the leg that was injured, was feeling a little cold and wet that I realized that maybe this was more than just a little run-in with the wall. I pulled up my pant leg and noticed a rather dark red stream of blood trickling down my leg from a decent size gash in my leg.

Anyone see "Forgetting Sarah Marshall"? Remember the scene in the movie where Russell Brand's character is on the beach with coral stuck in his leg and Jason Segal's character has to pull it out? Well once the coral was pulled out and 3-5 seconds passed till a river of red started to flow down his leg...that was pretty much my situation. Minus the coral, being in Hawaii, and having Russell Brand or Jason Segal in my house.

I felt I was going to pass out. Not wanting to be found dead later that night (because I was the last one there) I mustered up some strength to clean myself off and put on two very big square Band-Aids.

That kid better bring that damn ticket stub. I'm probably crippled for life now.

Now I'm waiting at the firefly for my lovely friends, Katieface, Tressie (who now has short hair), and Anne for our weekly hangout. (Pictures to come later....of the fly and my leg)

method to the madness

"Why don't you clean your room"

answer: its because I know where everything is, so I don't need to be organized

"Well, then look at your car! Its a pit! You should clean that"

answer: same reason as the room. I have everything and anything that I might ever need. extra shoes, a sweater, random pieces of paper

"Why a hammer?"

answer: very simple. I don't want to be trapped in my car when I fly off the road into a river and my windows won't open because they are electric.

I'm thinking ahead.

Well I took their advice. I did what they told me to do. I cleaned my car

and I am 95% sure I accidently threw away my baby nikon coolpix...penelope. :(

so much for being organized. Now that I am, I have no idea where anything is.

scatterbrained

No one is in my house right now...seriously. I'm all alone and honestly I really don't like it.

I get really scurred when I'm home alone, especially at night. I am a baby. My cat runs around the house making crazy noises and I freak out and think its a killer/rapist/salesman/vampire/zombie or whatever and I really just freak myself out. Maybe I should go to sleep. She & Him is calming down, I really love that music.

Classes have started for me, and so far they are somewhat interesting. I'm really excited for my Ethics class, mostly only because there will be group discussions over hot topics and I love awkward situations when people yell at each other and disagree (I'm a freak, I enjoy this)

I'm currently reading Tucker Max's I Hope They Serve Beer In Hell and ohemgee friends. This book, which is not only distrubing and gross, its unbelievable....but its freaking hilarious. I cannot stop laughing at each and every single story. Tucker is an asshole (seriously, he even said it about himself). He drinks too much, sleeps with way to many girls, and has stupid friends, but the situations that they all get themselves into are unforgettable, unbecoming, and sometimes unforgivable. I can't believe people want to be like him. I have to say, I give him kudos for living every single day in the moment, because honestly that is exactly what he does. Good grief.

If you haven't heard of it or haven't read it, please do. It will change your life!

I do apologize for this entry just being everywhere. My thoughts are flying a zillion miles per hour and I really can't focus on one thing, mostly because I'm keeping an ear out for killers.

survey fun one

Let'​​​​s start​ it off with,​​​​ are you avail​able?​​​​

-no actually. I'm in a relationship with this kid named scott esmond

Are there​ any stres​sful situa​tions​ in your life?​​​​​​​​

-not really, except the fact I need a job and school is starting again.

Do you enjoy​ late night​ phone​ conve​rsati​ons?​​​​

-sometimes. I enjoy all phone conversations...i wish i had them more

Do you have any pet fish?​​​​​​​​

-yes, scott and I co-own a goldfish. Her name is Stella Micheal Micheal David Scribner-Esmond (if you really want to know why...just ask)

Do you dance​ in the car?

-sometimes

Is there​ someo​ne you don'​​​​​​​​t ever want to be out of your life?​​​​​​​​

-of course there are alot of people I could not live without.

Where​ did you get your last bruis​e from?​​​​​​​

-the couch attacked me

Have you ever thoug​ht you were gonna​ die?

-not really no.

Do you get along​ more with girls​ or guys?​​​​​​​​

-both I would say. I get along with pretty much everyone

What are you currently hearing?

-stranger than fiction

Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex who means​ a lot to you?

-there are a few

What brand​ of digit​al camer​a do you have?​​​​​​​​

-I have a few, kodax, canon, nikon

Would​ you rathe​r marry​ a footb​all playe​r or a baske​tball​ playe​r?​​​​

-neither..is that really an choice?

When was the last time you saw your dad?

-earlier this evening, he kicked me off the tv...because I was playing Fable II and he wanted to watch the playoffs

Do you drink​ soda?​​​​

-nope, not anymore and I haven't had a soda since the end of 2007.

Anyon​e crush​ing on you?

-well i know that there is this kid who really likes me...

Has anyon​e ever sang to you?

-yes in fact

Has anyon​e ever given​ you roses​?​​​​

-a couple times yes but i haven't gotten roses since my last relationship I was in

First​ perso​n to text you today​?​​​​​​​​

-scott esmond

What is your favor​ite color​?​​​​​​​​

-red red red red red

What color​ are your eyes?​​​​​​​​

-brown sometimes hazel and on the off chance a little green

Whens​ your next vacat​ion?​​​​​​​​

-i have no idea.

i wanna road trip to somewhere

What are you looki​ng ​forwa​rd to?

-something amazing

What would​ your last name be if you marri​ed the last perso​n you texte​d?​​​​​​​

-esmond

Do you worry​ your ex will move on & be happi​er with anoth​er perso​n?​​​​​

-I really don't worry about AJ Lorenzini anymore. He is rarely in my thoughts.

Do peopl​e tend to walk all over you?

-Not really ever no

Are you reall​y happy​ or are you just sayin​g that?

-no I really am very happy.

If you were kicke​d out of your curre​nt resid​ence whom would​ you call?

​​​​-I don't know, probably scott, tressie, or katie.

or my grandma...she likes me.

Do you think​ relat​ionsh​ips are hard?​​​​​​​

-they shouldn't be, but sometimes you need to communicate...which is something i'm terrible at.

Whens​ the next time you'​​​​​​​ll see your close​st frien​d?​​​​​​​

-tomorrow

What was the last reaso​n that you cried​?​​​​​​​

-I was an emtional wreck.

and I was worried that scott didn't like my hair (yeah, it happens. I get a little too emotional, I think its my relationship with Alice Hayes)

Does it take a lot to make you cry?

-Not really. If I see anyone (really anyone) crying, I'll tear up too.

You have sibli​ngs over the age of 21?

-not yet. I'm the oldest and I'm not even 20...though I'm hitting the big two ohhhhh this year

What is your favor​ite kind of weath​er?​​​​​​​

-the fall kind

Are you happy​ with your life?​​​​​​

-Very happy

Are you a loud perso​n?​​​​​​​

-Generally

Would​ you trade​ lives​ with a famou​s perso​n?​​​​​​​

-Not really, though I wouldn't mind being emma thompson every now and then

Are you weari​ng any jewel​ry?​​​​​​​

-nope

Do you have a hard time admit​ting you'​​​​​​​re wrong​?​​​​​​

-sometimes. I can be exteremly stubborn

you think​ you have made a diffe​rence​ in anyon​e'​​​​​​​s life?​​​​​​​

-I would like to think that I have

What shoul​d you be doing​ right​ now?

-sleeping. I have class bright and early tomorrow

When was the last time you slept​ on the floor​?​​​​​​

-everyday of my life.

My bed is broken, so my mattress is on the floor.

Has anybo​dy ever given​ you butte​rflie​s?​​​​​​​

-Yes thank you

Will you have a valen​tine this year?​​​​​​

-In all reality I should...but Scott says he does not celebrate V-day...which makes me very sad but I looooovvvve it.

Where​ is your favor​ite place​ to be?

-with friends

-Gatlinberg

-Canada

-Florida

-out in the middle of nowhere

excuse me...you said plain?

Have you ever had a dream that you swore was real?...you know, the types of dreams that you find something, be it money, friends, bandaids, whatever, and when you woke up you were suddenly hit with reality that none of it actually happened.

I had one of those dreams last night, and I would have contiuned to dream if my no-good-taller-than-me brother hadn't come running into my room shouting "WE HAVE NO SCHOOOOOL...WE HAVE NO SCHOOOOOL" at the top of his lungs. Let me fill you in on Jonbo Stuart Scribner...

Jon is loveable and sensitive, however he puts of the facade of being the "tuff guy". He may seem like he doesn't care about whatever it is you are doing but let me tell you something. This sixteen year old sophomore still gets up at 3:30 a.m. on Christmas morning running around with excitement just to open his stocking. Jon may not be quick with a come back, but every now and then he'll throw out a clever remark. He is also very photogenic, which is a big plus for me. Jon however is really big on having his picture taken very often, which is not a big plus for me. I just like taking his picture.

Anyway, back to the point...

Jon is the reason I woke up this morning, and I suppose that the texts from Scott saying he wanted to hang out with me before he had to go to show choir practice at three were another reason for me to start the day.

Since there are not alot of hip cool hang outs around the Huntertown area, most kids hang out at the new local Wal-Mart, which I'm so sad to say, is what I do sometimes. I mean who can beat those unbelievably low prices? I suppose marketing tyrants have won this round. Scott and I walked around for a while, played a little guitar hero setting all the high scores (I'm soooo lammmme). After he left I took a little personal self discovery trip to PetSmart and The Dollar Store. Both were very enlightening.

Around six thirty in the evening I recieved a very interesting phone call from Scott saying that he had broke his key inside of the lock while trying to unlock himself from the inside of the car...

Yes....

This is what he said happened.

While parked next to the new enterance that leads right to the new choir room, Scott's driver side door would not open (meaning the lock wouldn't move), so what he did was roll down the window (electric), take the key out of the ingnition, and place the key in the outside lock while still in the car, twisted and....SNAP!

I had to hold in my amusement, because apparently it is too soon to make jokes. So I spent a good half hour to and hour duct taping his window so snow wouldn't get inside it (and the tape wouldn't hold, and with this awesome Indiana wind, I'm sure its been pressed in). I really believed for a moment that I would have to say goodbye to my fingers, as victims of frostbite.

I'm a lucky survivor...I have never been so cold in my life.

Rock Band Revolution

Hello world. I have come to realize that I don't post as much as I want to or would like to. I believe that getting caught up in everyday life, I don't set aside that time for me. That time that I need to be alone and to just think. I like thinking. I like to just lay down on my mattress and look up at my unfinished painted ceiling and let my mind go where ever it wants.

Nothing is new with me. Christmas has come and gone as well as New Years. I'm really hoping that two thousand and nine will be an awesome year. Not that I'm saying that oh eight hasn't been wonderful, its just that some of the events that happened weren't all that pleasant and I'm looking forward to a new beginning.

MOVIE REVIEW:

This movie was, to put simply, amazing. I felt such a connection to the characters, their feelings, their motives, the affection towards each other. I loved every single character. Brad Pitt put on (in my opinion of course) the best preformance ever (well fight club was pretty impressive as well). If you haven't had a chance to see it, please please please check it out. If you tend to get a little teary eyed, bring tissues. I cried ALOT, especially the last twenty-thirty minutes. This film will tug at your heart strings.

Enough of this if I do say so myself....

One of my new years resolutions is to be more faithful to this blog and hopefully you the reader will have more joy when reading it.

thank you though, wonderful reader, I thank you

:::EDIT:::

As you might have noticed, or not if you are a newbie (welcome in that case), I have given my blog a new face. I think I like it much better than the white. It adds a splash of character in a way.

All day today I have not felt good. My poor tummy has been upset. Its almost like that feeling before you throw up (classy I know). There were times today I just wanted to spew just to get that yuckie feeling out of my body. I really don't like being sick...at all. Next to running and slow drivers, its my least favorite thing in the entire world. I wish I would just feel better. Falling asleep is difficult, eating is difficult, practically doing anything is difficult, and honestly I really don't care for it. Pepto seems to be my only friend. Scott tried to make me feel better by cuddling with me and just holding me in his arms, which on any other day would be amazing. But when I'm sick I don't like being touched, by anyone, be it my dad, mom, brother, boyfriend, friend. It doesn't matter. When I'm sick, I feel gross all over (even if in reality I'm not) and I feel sticky. I was pretty much a jerk to Scott and I know he was only trying to make me feel better. I think I should do something nice for him, because honestly...I was a little snappy.

oh goodness, I suppose he loves me anyways...and I love him. He is probably the best thing that has happened to me in a long time and for that I'm so grateful to have him in my life. :]

Celia Anne